I Experienced God’s Healing and the Power of
By Tina Tsai
(Translated by Rev. Dr. Sen-Yuan Su 2005)
Brothers and sisters in Christ, I would like to share my spiritual journey with you. I encountered spiritual warfare , oppression, and bondage from an “Evil Spirit”. Without a doubt, even children of God could encounter attacks from the evil one. But, thanks be to God, we can be healed and enjoy real freedom by the power of the Holy Spirit so as to serve Him and glorify His name!
Jesus ministry includes teaching, healing and deliverance. His disciples carried on His healing ministry right after Pentecost- descending of the Holy Spirit. Acts 4:30-31 states,” Stretch out your hand to heal and perform miraculous signs and wonders through the name of your holy servant Jesus. After they prayed, the place where they were meeting was shaken. And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and spoke the word of God boldly.” In Acts 5:12 says, “ the apostles performed many miraculous signs and wonders among the people…” Hebrew 13:8 states, “ Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.”
We believe that the Holy Spirit continues to support His church including healing and deliverance ministry. I was born in a non-Christian family. In my childhood, I used to worship gods and my ancestors during new year days and certain religious festival occasions. We had to worship ancestors memorial plates by way of burning incense and changing water on the table.
While I was a child, my mother got Ovarian Cancer and had to go to hospital in Taipei and Shin –Chu City receiving treatments. At that time, my sister was in middle school. She Had to go to Taipei and Shin-Chu City to take care of my mother. They both were away from me. At my age of 8, my mother passed away after two years of intensive treatments. Since then, my sister had to take care of my brother and me. We both deeply appreciate what she had done for us while we were young.
Since my childhood, I had been afraid of darkness, fear of ghosts, scared to be alone, and afraid to speech in public. I rarely participated in social activities. Also, I didn’t contact relatives often. I was a quiet person. While seeking to be accepted by good schools, I chose a long and lonely life along with stress. Very often, I felt emptiness, having a sense of inferiority and need to depend on others. At times, I envied kids those who have parents nearby. However, Praise the Lord! God prepared my elder sister to look after me.
After I got married, I received care from my mother-in-law and from my husband, but somehow I found that I couldn’t handle kids and domestic stuff very well. My life was still full of emptiness, fear, inferiority, ;loneliness, speechlessness, dependency, and without joy.
In 1983, my husband and I were baptized and converted to Christ. My husband was actively involved in Bible study , church meetings, and serving the Lord. He prayed for patients and staff in his clinic often. In addition, he preached the gospel, involved in visitation ministry. Additionally, he invited friends to join evangelical meetings occasionally. Hosting cell group gatherings and guest speakers in our home is as part of our life. Even so, I was still suffering from being emotionally depressed, sleeping disorder, and oppression in my chest. My situation was getting worse. I even went to see heart doctor receiving further tests. Still, there was no clue for what ailed me at all.
For years, my husband had been asking pastors, preachers, brothers, and sisters to pray for me. Besides, I also attended many anointed conferences including deliverance meetings. Again, there were no lasting positive results for their efforts. I was still suffering from depression, easily irritated, making complaints, losing interests for routine activities. I had no energy all day long. My life had no focus. My thinking process was slowing down. I even didn’t know how to cope with life’s difficulties and issues. I had a sense of inferiority, and got caught in self-condemnation. I was losing confidence to face the future. My memory were getting poor, forgetting, having concentration problem, and experiencing tiredness often.. My will was weak to handle daily business.
Moreover, I was losing interest for life activities, reluctant to talk and didn’t even think about doing things. My mood was controlled by weather and seasons changes. I was annoyed by that and sometimes I just couldn’t handle my emotions, and started to argue with my husband. I spent countless energy and experienced numerous pain. My life seemed to come to the end. No hope at all.
Thanks be to God! On 1/29 last year, God was sending brother Steve Coleman to heal and deliver me. He counseled with my husband and me patiently and tenderly with the power and anointing of the Holy Spirit. I was crying all day long that day. I was strongly aware that God healed me from my long term broken- hearted situation, such as receiving no Adequate motherhood love in childhood, feeling rejected and abandoned when mother died, the “Spirit of Death” came to me shifting from my deceased mother. I felt totally released that day.. My energy recovered. Everything was new and fresh to me. Psalm 147:3 states,” He heals the brokenhearted, and binds up their wound.” Hallelujah I experienced God’s divine healing and deliverance. Luke4:18-19 says, “ … to release the oppressed.” Once a church has inner healing and deliverance ministry team, helping people sorting out their problem’s origin, I believe that it would ease pastor’s burdens in pastoral counseling. However, it was like I was born again and receiving a renewing life. In II Corinthian 5:17 says, “ Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come.” In Lamentations 3:23 states,” They are new every morning, great is your faithfulness.” God gave me a new life and new hope.. Evidently, God is willing to see His children having a life to the full. In John10:10 says,” I have come that they may have life , and have it to the full.” In Lamentations 3:22 states,” prophet Jeremiah says, “Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.” God revealed His divine healing and the power of deliverance in me within a day. Since then, my husband saw me as a new wife, my sons saw me as their new mother. My friends saw me as a new person. God is really my most precious treasure in life! I am upset no more. Instead, I sleep well, the oppression in chest was gone, and I have a clear mind. I am able to responded to life issues quickly. I found it easier to handle life stresses. The days of emptiness, loneliness, and sense of inferiority were all gone. My wounded emotions from my past have no control over me. Now I praise, and worship God daily. Meanwhile, I repent before God asking for His mercy and salvation so as to establish intimate relationship with Him. I learned how to keep God’s word and promise in me.
On August 23, 2005, my husband and I were visiting brother Tim to talk about “Fear of Darkness”, and being afraid of ghosts, and “issues of anger.” Suddenly, I was set free. I meditated on why I had waited so long to be healed? I almost spent half century to get healed and to be set free. Since then, I can gradually enjoy freedom and love of God more and more.
“Healing and deliverance” is a procedure. It is like peeling off an onion skin one after another. The process is not a permanent shortcut spiritually. It is one of the ministries of the Great Commission. Hosea 2:14 says,” therefore I am now going to allure hers. I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her.” I believe God has a plan for me since He allowed those things that happened in my life. My dear brothers and sisters, you have to get rid off all obstacles between God and you.. Make sure to spend time with God alone. Apostle Paul says in Romans 8:28, “ And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him. Who have been called according to His purpose.” Apostle Peter in I Peter 5:10 also states,” And the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.” Apostle James also emphasizes in James 1:2-4, “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trails of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” The verse stated above really helped me to walk in the path of God, doing what God called me to do. In John 14:12 , Jesus said,” I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father.”
Luke 9:1-2 states, “ When Jesus had called the twelve together, he gave them power and authority to drive out all demons and to cure diseases, and he sent them out to preach the kingdom of God and to heal the sick.” It is our privilege to take a part in the Great Commission.
I would like to quote what Paul emphasizes in Philippines 3:12-14 saying,” Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead. Press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.” In I Corinthians 13:12 states,” Now we se but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.” Hosea 2:16 says,” In that day, “ declares the Lord, “ You will call me ‘my husband’. you will no longer call me ‘ my master’”. Indeed, we can enjoy everything in Christ.
Romans8:37 says, “ Now, in all these things we are more than conquers through him who loved us. “ Those who trust in the Lord will be winners in life. Brothers and sisters, we all can become the most beautiful, shinning, and outstanding people. Thank You Jesus, the only loving God. For Yours is the praises, glory, honor, and power. A-men